All I really want to know is how other people are making it through life? Where do they put their body hour by hour, and how do they cope inside of it?
The thing is that this past week I’ve doubted if I wanted to heal at all. The darkness asked for me again, took my hand and tried to lure me back. Could not let myself to care abt the ways it would kill me. Just wanted to feel something that would consume me. Something that would take it all away. Forget how this all just tries to get me away from the truth. So much shit out of the past now here to haunt me. Don’t want to face it at all.
The dark, the destruction was there when I had nothing else to protect me. I’m stronger now. Can carry the pain. Want all my past selves to know they’re save now.
Ruining myself not the solution only a way to turn away from it all.
